At loose ends.
Estrangement is foreign to me.
Can’t see the path.
Not sure there is a path.
Need to remember, although lost, I’m not a lost cause.
My life isn’t a lost cause.
Have difficulty seeing my purpose.
My main purpose was being Mom.
I have to believe.
I have to keep putting one foot in front of the other.
Eventually find a new life.
Life always with a sense of pain and loss.
I can’t forget my children. Impossible.
But it’ll be a life.
May even be a purposeful life.
An unknown unseen reason to go on living.
Day by day.